Sleeping on a Lotus Petal

The days seem to be blurring together. Sunrise and sunset, still yielding to the hope of new adventures. I remember being in love, and loving deeply. And yet I could not then, fathom the depth of love that is shared with my wife. In love, I found sacrifice. I found something more enjoyable than surface romance.

Old friendships are never lost, sometimes forgotten, but never lost. They wait, like all things wait, to be remembered, to be valued. Taken off the shelf and repolished, old friendships are shining brilliant with the newness of life - love lost, life born, unemployed, re-employed, and of course, the sizzle of bacon... mmm bacon.

The myriad of colors that blur my sight and give me a headache at the same time scream out the proclamation of God. God IS. And although I am not - a nothingness, a speck on the dust cloth of creation, I AM at the same time a drop of life, cusp on the edge of a tear and destined to be transformed into the fingerprint of a snowflake.

I am allergic to cats. And I detest yogurt. But like the armadillo and platypus, both cats and yogurt remain enigmatic to me. Why would God allow for their existence? How can humanity co-exist with such things?

In the stream of conciousness - that process of wakefulness which robs us of our individuality, our purpose, and our identity, we must try to remember our dreams. Why have we so easily yielded our dreams and our hopes to the idle distractions of life and living? Careers, cubicles, car payments, chineese food. Hopeless, heart-breaking, hellish, haikus. All leading to a shallow diaspora - a microscopic fragile film that we call life.

I implore you, alas if you have read this far, then I apologise as well. I implore you to seek the solitude of your soul and reach for the truth of your life. Your life has meaning. You are deeply loved. If all in this world is fleeting, then hold fast to love. For love is infinite. Love is a driving force capable of up-ending the universe and kicking it in the rump ( much needed at times).

YOU ARE DEEPLY LOVED, and you have exquisite power to love others... to love strangers. Those trapped in the wakefulness of life. A smile, an ear, a soft hand on the shoulder. A hug, a kiss, a nudge in the right direction.

Be noble not for nobility's sake, or for the glory of being seen, but rather allow your demeanor to evolve from the love you share with others, even when others are not capable of seeing.

Love. Love and sleep. Dream among the clouds and lotus. Swim among the stream of humanity. Touch all the earth with your hands and toes. Smell the salty air. Gaze upon stars and encourage others to do the same.

For what is the best hallmark of humanity and civilization? It is not gleaming towers of glass and steel. Nor is it an Xbox and wii... it is love.

Me Check, 2009

1. I am completely in love with God and all of His creation.
2. I only went on one date with my wife before we were engaged.
3. I have 3 dogs: Andy, Dixie, and Bailey Jet
4. My parents recently moved from Ohio to Texas and now they live with me.
5. I am an Eagle Scout.
6. My first tattoo (on my shoulder) is an Ohm, in a compass rose, in a sun... it reminds me that all of life is connected through our conciousness
7. My second tattoo (on my neck) is an Alpha and Omega super imposed... it reminds me that beyond conciousness is God, the beginning and the end
8.I am the God father to my first girlfriend's, sister's daughter. Her name is Destiny.
9.I do not scare easily.... hardly at all -- it is responsible in part for my lack of common sense.
10. I fully believe that ADD and ADHD are what normal people label geniuses.
11. We drive Kia's... because they are cheap
12. I love Chemistry.
13. I've been to every major continent except Antartica
14. I think people need to know that it is ok to be imperfect, weak, frail, insecure, awkward, sentimental...and I do my best to help them relate by sharing my imperfections, weaknesses, frailties, insecurities, etc with them.
15. I make very little time for "official" things, but will create time for listening to a friend or stranger about their day or life.
16. I retired at the age of 32.
17. I spent the first year of my marriage spending as much time at home with Katya as I could.
18. I built and sold two companies by age 30.
19. People should never retire, it's boring... I built and sold a third company and now work for the company that bought me.
20. I suffer from Insomnia on a regular basis
21. I have witnessed the impact of 4 hurricanes and lived through one of them (Ike, Gustave, Rita, and Katrina)
22. After seeing that I can win in a game of chess, I often lose on purpose to make my opponent feel better... typically I only win when I am angry...
23. I am extremely conservative (near republican) in my views on the economy and welfare...
24. I think all people should be taught the law and legal skills from the 6th grade and eradicate the need for lawyers.
25. I still watch cartoons.